Tuesday, August 31, 2010

20 Ramadan 1431

From Ramadan

A memory, like a ghost,
passes through—
a pool of cool air!
In reply to being spooked,
a little shout

flutters out.
Who goes there?
Whose memory
do I descry?
What word was spoken,
half heard?
Whose blurred call: All or nothing at all?
Just a passing thought,
a cipher, naught,
in a night that looms
larger than a thousand nights,

a night of spirits’ flight.

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Monday, August 30, 2010

19 Ramadan 1431


These days are called "ayyAm al-Darbah," the days of the hit, the blow (of the sword), against Imam `Ali (`a).
Everything is black. It was during the fajr prayer that the attack was carried out, before dawn.
Out of the darkness came a poisoned sword. They say the assailant paid a thousand dirhams for the sword and another thousand to have it impregnated with poison. There are many stories about the attack and its motivation. They come to us out of the darkness of history. The assassin was Ibn Muljam, a Kharajite. It is said that he plotted with others. There is also a story that a woman who hated Imam `Ali because some of her relatives had fallen in battle with him asked Ibn Muljam to kill Ali as a part of her bride price when he proposed to her. He was caught immediately after the attack. It is said that when he was brought to Ali, the Imam ordered the ropes with which he had been bound to be loosened. Ali advised his sons not to seek revenge, but to carry out the execution of the murderer if he, Ali, should die, swiftly and by a single stroke. He forbade the dismembering of the corpse of the murderer, saying that the Prophet had said that even a rabid dog should not be dismembered. This is in Nahj al-Balagha. Sheikh Muzaffer Ozak al-Jerrahi elaborates on the story to get to its more general point, imagining Imam `Ali (`a) to have said: Take care not to kill him with cruelty or torture, for I once heard your grandfather Muhammad (Sall Allahu alaihi wa Aalihi wa Sallim) say: "Do not kill even a rabid dog with torture and pain." It is also reported that when he was given milk, Ali ordered that half of it be offered to Ibn Muljam because of his hunger.
What is the point? We should not let gut reactions, inclinations, anger, and such take over. Even when faced with the most horrible crimes, and even if the punishments for those crimes are to be carried out, `Ali (`a) advises his son (in Letter 23 of Nahj al-Balagha):
If I forgive, it is a means of nearness (to Allah) for me, and for you a good deed. Therefore, do forgive! What? Would you not love God to forgive you?
Here is an example for us in Ramadan, as we try to learn to control ourselves so that we may direct our own actions toward what is best.
These are days and nights in which prayers are answered. Last night was the first of the three nights that might be considered Laylat ul-Qadr, the night of great worth, which might also be called the night of destiny, the night in which the future is measured out by divine decree. So, last night I prayed for family members, friends, colleagues, correspondents, as many as I could by name, and others generally, those suffering from flood, earthquake, and other natural disasters, and for all those made miserable by the human institutions, such as war and poverty, and other forms of corruption, that humanity has not been able to tame.
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Sunday, August 29, 2010

18 Ramadan 1431

Reach out your hand if your cup be empty,
If your cup is full may it be again,
Let it be known there is a fountain,
That was not made by the hands of men.


The author of these words may not have known that the name of the fountain is Kawthar,
or the significance of Kawthar as Zahra (`a), the spring from which flows the imamate.
Tonight will be the first night of qadr, the night of great worth. We will attend this night with empty cups,
seeking to fill them with blessings.
There are many poems, stories, historical events, and personal memories that seem to have no objective connection to the path to Allah,
yet they become meaningful when understood as signs on the way.
One of my favorites is Heinrich Heine's Lorelei. The poet tells of his sadness and how an old story runs through his mind
of a girl on the top of a cliff, singing and combing her golden hair, and the young man who crashes his boat on the rocks below the cliff
because of distraction. Heine might not have known that the beauty is a symbol for divinity, the Beloved,
and that the lover must drown in order to be united with the Beloved,
as the self must be annihilated in divinity to be perfected.
The night of qadr, laylat ul-qadr, is usually translated as "the night of power",
but I don't think this has the right connotations. Qadr means measure and worth, too.
This night is one of such great worth, one who's measure is so great, that in it the Qur'an could be revealed in a moment.
We come to this night with our empty cups with hands reaching out and crying for our cups to be filled.
O Saki!

Hey, here Winebringer, circulate, offer the cup this way;
For love at first seemed easy, now problems come to stay.

Finally breeze sent muskpod's scent from that forehead:
Its twist Of musky hair makes blood clot our hearts today.

Can wayfarers stay happy and secure in Beloved's house,
When suddenly the bell clangs to: "Lift your load! Away!"

With wine dye your prayer-mat if the Master commands;
This experienced traveller has understanding of the way.

The dark night and terrifying wave and fierce whirlpool:
Do those light of burden on shore know where we stay?

By acting upon my own desires I ruined my reputation:
Can the secret stay that way when crowds tell it all day?

Hafiz, if you desire the Divine Presence, do not be absent:
When you visit your Beloved: "Farewell" to the world say.


Translator:

Smith, P. (1986). Divan of Hafiz. Melbourne: New Humanity Books.

For translations of Hafiz by Paul Smith contact the author.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

17 Ramadan 1431


Last night, I polished off two bottles

of pure water,

but my hands were scented,

with white ginger

from a lotion

that I picked up

years ago

at a hotel

in Malaysia.


It is hot, and water relieves the heat. One of the acts of worship recommended on various nights of Ramadan is ghusl. In practice under the circumstances, this means taking a shower and letting the water flow over one's head, right side and left side in sequence. Showers in Iran are tiled rooms. I like the water to be cool.


We fast, and Imam Reza (`a) tells us that by fasting we should feel the pain of those who are hungry and thirsty. As I dry off from the shower at night and sip more cold water, I recall how many people don't have access to clean water.


Here is a map of projected water scarcity for 2025.

Here is another.


According to UN statistics, about 700 million people in 43 countries are under "water stress" and suffer from water shortages. About one-sixth of the global population does not have access to clear drinking water, and one-third to basic sanitation.

The number of refugees from the world's dry regions, according to UN statistics, surpassed the number of displaced persons fleeing from armed conflict in 2009.

As we drink water in the nights and bathe ourselves, let's remember the 700 million under water stress in our prayers.


Friday, August 27, 2010

16 Ramadan 1431




There is a calmness that can come with fasting. It is Friday; I'm home today. It is quiet.
Yesterday was Imam Hasan's birthday. I pray that I can benefit from his guidance and in the stillness of the fast today, to let God draw me to Himself.

So, how was Imam Hasan (`a) drawn to his Lord? Through suffering.
Throughout his life he suffered treachery and disloyalty. He was attacked by people who accused him of having become an idolater, and he was poisoned by a wife who was bribed to do so by his enemy. Throughout everything that happened to him, Imam Hasan (`a) maintained patience and sought to increase justice while avoiding bloodshed. When he was dying he predicted that his funeral procession would be confronted by hostile forces, and he urged his brother, Husayn (`a) to let no blood be spilled. It transpired as he had predicted, and heeding Hasan's request, Husayn was able to prevent any bloodshed so that Hasan's body passed by the grave of his grandfather, Muhammad (s) and was buried in Baqi cemetery nest to his mother Fatimah (`a).


From Ramadan



1. Fatimah bint Muhammad

2. Hassan ibn Ali ibn Abu Talib

3. Zain Abideen ibn Hussain ibn Ali

4. Muhammad Baaqir ibn Zainul Abideen

5. Jafar as-Sadiq ibn Muhammad Baaqir

6. Abbas ibn Abdul Muttalib
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Thursday, August 26, 2010

15 Ramadan 1431


Some of the most moving prayers are the munajat of Imam Sajjad (`a ). One of them was read on TV this morning while I shared a meal with my family prior to the day's fast. It is called "The Whispered Prayer of the Complainers" (Munajat al-Shakiyyin), and is superbly translated by Wm. Chittick (may God bless him abundantly). Chittick calls the munajat "whispered prayers", which gives something of the feeling of the intimacy assumed between the supplicant and God. In these prayers the supplicant holds nothing back and cries out (or whispers?) from the depths of his soul his needs and longings.

The Whispered Prayer of the Complainers


In the Name of God, the All-merciful,
the All-compassionate

1 My God,
to Thee I complain of a soul
commanding to evil,308
rushing to offenses,
eager to disobey Thee,
and exposing itself to Thy anger.
It takes me on the roads of disasters,
it makes me the easiest of perishers before Thee;
many its pretexts,
drawn out its expectations;
when evil touches it,
it is anxious,
when good touches it,
grudging;309
inclining to sport and diversion,
full of heedlessness and inattention,
it hurries me to misdeeds
and makes me delay repentance.
2 My God,
I complain to Thee
of an enemy who misguides me
and a satan who leads me astray.
He has filled my breast with tempting thoughts,
and his suggestions have encompassed my heart.
He supports caprice against me,
embellishes for me the love of this world,
and separates me from obedience and proximity!
3 My God,
to Thee I complain
of a heart that is hard,
turned this way and that by tempting thoughts,
clothed in rust and the seal,310
and of an eye
too indifferent to weep in fear of Thee
and eagerly seeking that which gladdens it!
4 My God,
there is no force and no strength
except in Thy power,
and no deliverance for me from the detested things of this world
save through Thy preservation.
So I ask Thee
by Thy far-reaching wisdom
and Thy penetrating will
not to let me expose myself to other than Thy munificence
and not to turn me into a target for trials!
Be for me
a helper against enemies,
a coverer of shameful things and faults,
a protector against afflictions,
a preserver against acts of disobedience!
By Thy clemency and mercy,
O Most Merciful of the merciful!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

14 Ramadan 1431



Fasting used to have a prominent place in Christian spirituality. In a book about the Desert Fathers, it is written:


An old man was asked, ‘‘How can I find God?’’ He said, ‘‘In

fasting, in watching, in labours, in devotion, and, above all,

in discernment. I tell you, many have injured their bodies

without discernment and have gone away from us having

achieved nothing. Our mouths smell bad through fasting, we

know the Scriptures by heart, we recite all the Psalms of David,

but we have not that which God seeks: charity and humility.’’

(Ward, B. (ed.), The Desert Fathers: Sayings of the Early Christian

Monks. London/New York: Penguin Books, 2003., number 90)


Someone asked an old man, ‘‘What is humility?’’ He replied,

‘‘Humility is a great and divine work. The road leading to

humility is through bodily labours, and considering oneself a

sinner, inferior to all.’’ Then the brother said, ‘‘What does that

mean, ‘inferior to all’?’’ The old man said, ‘‘It is this: not paying

attention to others’ sins, but always to one’s own, praying to

God ceaselessly. (Ward, number 166)


Although Protestants are considered less ascetic than Catholics and Orthodox Christians, fasting played an important part in Pietist spirituality, which stemmed from the Lutheran tradition.


The fundamental framework for Wesleyan spirituality (expressed in a

tract called the Large Minutes) had five elements: prayer both

personal and collective, scriptural reading and meditation,

frequent Communion, fasting on Fridays, and spiritual conversation.


The Oxford or Tractarian Movement of Anglo-Catholicism also emphasized fasting.


Today, I personally know of a number of Mennonites who fast at least for a few days of Ramadan, and on other occasions, often in solidarity with those suffering from war and oppression.


May Allah let our fasting bring us humility, ceaseless remembrance of God, and compassion and solidarity with all those who suffer from the ravages of war, persecution, and other miseries.


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

13 Ramadan 1431


In the Risalat al-Huquq, Imam Sajjad (`a) writes about the right that our fasting has over us:

The right of fasting is that you know it is a veil that Allah has set up over your tongue, your hearing, your sight, your stomach, and your private parts to protect you from the Fire. If you abandon the fast, you will have torn God's protective covering away from yourself.
Coverings can be good or bad. The bad ones are barriers that prevent us from reaching our goals. The good ones are armor against Satan, barriers against the evils that surround us. The protective covering (hijab) can take many forms. It can be a retreat or seclusion. It can be a sanctuary. In the olden days criminals would seek sanctuary at shrines, and the police would leave them alone there until they came out. How is fasting supposed to protect us? How can it be a sanctuary? Is it because we keep our tongues, hearing, sight, stomach and privates from sin? But we are supposed to be doing that all the time, whether fasting or not. I think the fast is one in which we are to keep our tongues, hearing, etc., not only from what is prohibited, but from what is otherwise allowed. When we fast, we refrain from food, drink, and sex, which are otherwise allowed. But we should try to abstain even from what is otherwise allowed to see and hear and say, to try to make our fasting into a little hijab for us to crawl under and where we can concentrate on our relationship to Allah.

Sometimes our relationship to Allah suffers from the adversities we face, and sometimes, and even worse, in times of good fortune when one becomes neglectful. We should pray for all our brothers and sisters whose relationship with God has suffered because of adversity or fortune, and hope that during this month of fasting they may find sanctuary by which to restore themselves in communion with Him. We should try to cut off not only food during the hours of the fast, but to spend some hours cut off from everything but God. Then maybe we can gain some understanding of the negative coverings that prevent us from enjoying divine love through adversity and fortune.

Monday, August 23, 2010

12 Ramadan 1431


Fasting can be hypocritical. We can fast to show ourselves how pious we are. We can brag of how much weight we have lost in just twelve days. We can occupy ourselves with the outer rules of fasting but forget about what we are fasting for.

To make a show of prayer and fasting are condemned by Jesus (‘a) in the gospels. Jewish scholars also have made the point that fasting is worthless if it does not awaken one to repentance. Jews used to put ashes on their heads when they began to fast, and the eldest among them would admonish them: “Brethren, it is not written of the men of Nineveh (Jonah 3:10) that God saw their sack cloth and their fasting, but that ‘God saw their deeds, that they turned away from their evil ways.’”

All of the laws of the Torah, civil and penal as well as ritual, serve no other purpose than to clarify and facilitate our response to God. But they do so not by vanishing nor by subjuming or displacing that response but by sustaining and giving it its concrete sense and instantiated application.

Hilkhot Yesodei ha-Torah (of Maimonides) concerns sound opinions, the beliefs that convey the essential elements of the true understanding that philosophers pursue in regard to God and nature and our relations toward both. Regulations regarding fasts and repentance fall under this heading, since moral reformation and spiritual purgation are prerequisites of theological insight and of the alchemy that transmutes sound opinions into critically testable philosophical ideas.

-Lenn E. Goodman, God of Abraham, p. 162.

)وَاتَّقُوا اللٌّهَ وَيُعَلِّمُكُمُ اللٌّهُ وَاللٌّهُ بِكُلِّ شَيْءٍ عَلِيمٌ (

“Be God-wary and God shall teach you, and God has knowledge of all things.[89]

Sunday, August 22, 2010

11 Ramadan 1431

From Ramadan

Robert Brandom has a famous book: Making It Explicit, in which he develops some Hegelian themes in application to some problems that arise in analytic philosophy. The name of the book shows its indebtedness to Hegel, because Hegel's philosophy is all about the way in which Spirit makes itself manifest. Hegel was influenced by Jakob Boehme, a Lutheran mystic. Maybe that had something to do with his idea of the way that Spirit makes itself explicit. I think this is an idea that crosses denominational lines. It is a theme that can be found in Mawlana Jalal al-Din Rumi, for example. He writes:

What is this testimony? To make the hidden manifest, whether through words, deeds, or something else. For the goal is to make manifest the hidden secret of your substance: Its attribute will remain, but these accidents will pass.... This prayer, spiritual warfare, and fasting do not remain: The spirit remains with a good name. (Mathnavi V 246-247, cited in Chittick's The Sufi Path of Love, p. 89.)

Saturday, August 21, 2010

10 Ramadan 1431


So far, I've been thinking of the fast as a way to break habits and attain freedom or to take control of our lives. But as we saw in the discussion of gratitude, this is only a preliminary. The next step is to decide who we want to become. That is too overwhelming. So, we can decide in what respect we want to be a better person, as a spouse, as a parent, as a teacher, as a citizen, and all of these, at the same time, as a servant of God. The Holy Prophet (s) is reported to have said:

رُبَّ صَائِمٍ حَظُّهُ مِنْ صِيَامِهِ الْجُوْعُ وَالْعَطَشُ، وَرُبَّ قَائِمٍ حَظُّهُ مِنْ قِيَامِهِ السَّهَرُ.

“How often is the share of one who fasts, [nothing save] hunger and thirst, and how often is the share of one who stands in prayer [nothing but mere] vigil.[75]”In order to make it more than this, we have to try to improve ourselves. I can improve myself by getting rid of some faults, or lessening them; but I can also improve by acquiring new habits, and hoping to make them into virtues. According to Imam Khomeini:شده‏ايد، اگر به حق تعالى معرفت پيدا نكرديد يا معرفت شما زيادتر نشد، بدانيد در ضيافة اللّه درست وارد نشديد و حق ضيافت را به جا نياورديد...

“In this noble month, in which you have been invited to the divine banquet, if you do not gain insight (ma’rifah) about God the Almighty nor insight into yourself, it means that you have not properly participated in the feast of Allāh and failed to observe the etiquette of the feast...[86]

Therefore our aspirations should be high, and we should struggle to attain the position which would enable us enter the Divine Feast. In the supplication of Abū Hamzah al-Thumāli, which Imām al-Sajjād (‘a) taught to his noble companion, we are taught to pray in the following way:


...وَلَدَيْكَ أَرْجُوْ ضِيَافَتِي...

“…And I aspire to be a guest near You…”[87]

9 Ramadan 1431






On Thursday afternoon we went to Khaveh to visit a friend. We walked a bit around the village. I was feeling somewhat faint and leaned on my son, Ali. When we got back to my friend’s house, he told me to sit down while he poured cool water over my feet and into a plastic tub. I remembered the narration about Jesus (‘a) washing the feet of his disciples to teach them humility.


Jesus the son of Mary ('a) said, “O assembly of Apostles! I have a request of you. Fulfill it for me.” They said, “Your request is fulfilled, O Spirit of Allah!” Then he stood up and washed their feet. They said, “It would have been more proper for us to have done this, O Spirit of Allah!” Then he said, “Verily, it is more fitting for one with knowledge to serve the people. Indeed, I humbled myself only so that you may humble yourselves among the people after me, even as I have humbled myself among you.” Then Jesus ('a) said, “Wisdom is developed by humility, not by pride, and likewise plants only grow in soft soil, not in stone.”

(Kàfí, 1, 37, 6)


Humility is a difficult virtue. It was not considered a virtue at all by the Greeks. Farabi used the Aristotelian idea of virtue as a mean between extremes, and introduced humility as standing between arrogance and baseness, while Ibn Sina considered humility a part of wisdom that restrains the wise from arrogance. Ghazali considers it a principle virtue of those who possess taqwā.


On Friday morning we returned to Qom, and on Friday night I attended a sermon by Ayatullah Misbah Yazdi. He spoke about gratitude. Gratitude is a natural reaction that arises within one when one receives aid, especially when the aid is badly needed. [Aristotle recognizes gratitude, but only as what is due to one who has given someone something. He does not consider it as a virtue.] Religion teaches us gratitude to God, although it is a natural reaction to the divine blessings we enjoy. Some of the mutakallimin even argued for the existence of God on the basis of this natural appreciation of the good things of life. [I have also argued that belief in God is rational because it is reasonable to thank something for the bounties we enjoy, and nothing could be an appropriate object for such thanks except Allah.] Gratitude has many levels. One of the lowest levels is merely verbal. One approaches one's benefactor humbly and says "thank you". In saying "thank you" one acknowledges a debt. How can the debt be paid? One expresses readiness to serve the benefactor. [In English, we say, "much obliged", and "what can I ever do to repay you?"] If someone gives you a book, you might verbally express gratitude, but if you then throw the book in the rubbish or let children destroy it, you are ungrateful. The book should be used for study as the benefactor intended. [God has given us a book. In this blessed month the Glorious Qur'an was revealed. How can we show our gratitude?]




Thursday, August 19, 2010

8 Ramadan 1431

One week of fasting is finished, and where do we stand?

I feel a bit more light-headed during the days, and by iftār, somewhat weak. But do I realize how weak I am?

Sometimes it is said that through worship, including fasting, and other spiritual disciplines, the wayfarer seeks to take on the attributes of Allah. Maybe it would be more accurate to say that we try to take on attributes that reflect in a very limited way the attributes of Allah.

How are we to achieve that?

One place to start might be by recognizing our weaknesses. Since I am weak, I do better to trust my affairs to Him. Since I am weak, I do better to ask for His protection.

This is a kind of self-effacement. We should give up the illusion that we have sufficient strength that we can go our own way without His guidance. Only then can we begin to exhibit the reflections of His strength in ourselves.

How can we reflect the strength of God? Maybe by emulating His beneficence. By feeling weak we may commiserate with the weak, and so seek to aid them as we can.

Fayz writes:

Imam Ja'far al-Sadiq said: 'Allah made fasting obligatory in order that the wealthy and the poor [in the worldly sense] be made equal. That is because the rich do not taste the hunger that would cause them to be kind to the poor. Whenever the wealthy want something they can achieve it. So Allah desired to make equality within His creation, the wealthy tasting of hunger and pain so that they could have sympathy for the weak and compassion for the hungry.'

And it was said: It is enough that fasting is a means of elevating the lowest level of the human being to the highest level which is that of imitating the spiritual angels. Surely, that is enough of a virtue and a glorious deed.

Thanks to Saleem Saab and the Arc of London for the translation of Fayz’s remarks on fasting at:

http://sites.google.com/site/wwwthearcoflondon/thevirtuesoffasting

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

7 Ramadan 1431


{{You are permitted, on the night of the fast, to go into your wives: they are a garment for you, and you are a garment for them….}} (2:187)

It is reported that the Prophet (ṣ) said: “The sleep of one who fasts is worship.”

Asceticism easily becomes a fetish. There are those in whom celibacy and perversion combine. Islam is a lenient religion. It cautions against overdoing spiritual disciplines, such as fasting. One is not permitted to fast if it is harmful to one’s health.

Nevertheless, there are followers of just about every religion who go to extremes.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

6 Ramadan 1431


6 Ramadan 1431

It is reported that the Prophet () said: “For everything there is a gate, and the gate of worship is fasting.”

In many religions fasting was performed by way of preparation. In some of the Greco-Roman cults one would fast in preparation for a revelatory dream, for food was considered a factor that would corrupt dreams and confuse them. Some Chinese religions required fasting prior to the performance of rituals, although Taoists argued that a “fast of the heart” (purification of one’s thoughts and intentions) was better than fasting from food. Some Native American tribes also held that fasting would prepare one for guidance from the Great Spirit. Fasting was also seen by the Egyptians as a preparation for delivering an oracle.

By turning away from corporeal needs, one opens oneself to the spiritual world. So, fasting is a kind of purification from the worldly that enables one to focus on the other-worldly. In worship, we seek communication with the divine. Fasting is the gate to worship, because fasting is the form of purification that prepares us for communication with the divine.

To fast is to gain freedom from the material aspects of life, freedom from the slavery of one’s appetites. It is only after one has gained this freedom that one is able to freely express oneself to God in the communication that is worship.

Monday, August 16, 2010

5 Ramadan 1431


5 Ramadan 1431

We pray to God to remove the covers that we place between ourselves and Him. God is not hidden from us; but we hide Him from ourselves. We pretend He is not present by not paying attention to the ways in which His presence shines through everything there is. Why don't we pay attention? Because we are preoccupied with worldly inclinations. Hence, by fasting we try to overcome our inclinations. What is forbidden during the Ramadan fast are just instances. We can fast from any of the things to which we are inclined: TV, shopping, gossiping, complaining, being vindictive, being haughty. Surely we can go for some time without the object of some inclination, even if for an hour. Once we get control over ourselves, we can see things differently, and listen differently.

My father once gave up bread for Lent. It was hard for him, since he took sandwiches to work for lunch. He tried using lettuce leaves in place of bread to make his sandwiches. He finished the Lenten season with a firm resolve never never ever to give up eating bread for Lent again! But by doing it, he found out that he could conquer his need for bread, however unpleasant the conquest. He always told us: Never give up, never give up, never never ever give up! That's how we have to approach this problem of self-improvement.

Once we gain the confidence that we can reconfigure how we satisfy our inclinations to allign with the will of God, we will be wary about how we conduct ourselves, wary of God. William Chittick has suggested that the best way to think of taqwā is as “God-wariness”.

183. O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you As it was prescribed to those before you, that ye may (learn) taqwā,-

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Sunday, August 15, 2010

4 Ramadan 1431


According to Fayḍ Kāshānī (al-Maḥjat al-Bayḍā’) fasting is a quarter of faith, because
according to one narration, fasting is half of patience, and according to another
narration, patience is half of faith.
Fayḍ also mentions the famous hadith qudsi according to which God says, “For every good deed (there is a reward of) ten times the like of it to to seven hundred times, except for fasting, which is only for Me, and I am its reward.” Sometimes the last part is translated as, “and I give
its reward”, depending on the vocalization.
Here is the translation from Arabic: al-siyām (fasting) fa innahu lī (then verily it is
(only) for Me) wa anna (and I) ajzā bihi (am the reward-giver for it) OR ujzā bihi (am the reward for it):

الصيام لي و انا اجزي به

What does it mean that God is the reward for fasting? It does not mean that one
becomes God. Heaven forbid! I think it means that the reward of fasting is getting
into a good relationship with God by breaking the habits of false dependencies and
learning to take control of our lives in conversation with Him.
Friends tell me that those who prefer the reading "I am the reward for it" interpret this to mean some sort of union with God by which one achieves divine powers, and those who prefer the reading "I am the reward-giver for it" take it to mean that God will reward those who fast. I prefer the ujzā bihi reading, but take it to mean having God in a right relationship rather than the mystical union interpretation, unless mystical union is itself reinterpreted to mean having a right relationship to God.
According to another hadith qudsi: “Verily, the patient are compensated with an
immeasurable reward.” Since fasting is half of patience, the reward for fasting should
also be immeasurably good.
According to another hadith, it is reported that the Prophet (ṣ) said that there are two
pleasures granted to one who fasts, one is the pleasure of breaking the fast at ifṭār,
and the other is the pleasure of the encounter with one’s Lord. The first pleasure in its
outward meaning is the enjoyment of food after fasting. A deeper meaning would be
the conquest of one’s desires so as to be able to fulfill them voluntarily, that is, freely.
If we are truly free, we will seek to align our own will with the divine will and fulfill
our desires in accordance with divine law. The second pleasure has also be
interpreted in various ways, but as I see it, the voluntary alignment of our will with
His is at least one of the ways to encounter Him.

3 Ramadan 1431


Religious understanding strikes me as having various analogues in the study of logic. Bear with me, if you will, and I’ll try to explain the fasting of logic.
I start with my muddled reasoning, and am moved to repent. Allahhumma as’aluka [O God I ask you] by Your Knowledge, to clear up my troubled mind. This gives me hope. Maybe I can gain some clarity somehow, God willing. Then the love of precise thinking may manifest itself in my own mind!
How do we embark on a program to remedy this flaw? Well, I would recommend the study of logic! What is logic? Logic is the study of the consequence relation, or this seems to be the consensus of modern logicians, anyway. In order to get at something as abstract as the consequence relation, we need to take our ordinary thought and deprive it of its material content, to examine its form alone. Isn’t this a kind of fasting? Remove the food from food for thought! Once we do this, we can examine the structure of our reasoning without being swayed by its content. We can then sort the sturdy structures of reasoning from the fallacious ones, and finally pour whatever content we like back into the valid structures. In this way we are able to take control of our reasoning. We become logically empowered, gain freedom, by learning the language of logic. With the acquisition of a new language comes a rebirth. Every time you learn a new language you are born again with a personality attached to that language. The constraints of language give you the freedom to engage and converse with the cultural world of that language. It doesn’t matter whether the language is that of logic, math, Chinese, music, or the language of prayer. Whenever we want to learn a language we have to start with simple forms, abstracted from the content of whatever we really want to say.
We don’t fast because food is bad. We don’t study grammar because the content expressed in language is bad. We study grammar to gain mastery over the use of language. We study grammar to gain freedom to express ourselves. We fast in order to gain mastery over our inclinations. But the goal is not just to be able to skip meals at will. Fasting is symbolic. The goal is to break the habits of our inclinations. In Ramadan, we prove to ourselves that we can do it with food, but it would be a shame to let it drop there. We want to emerge from the month of fasting like butterflies from their cocoons. But to do that requires work, soul searching. One must ask how one’s inclinations or habits spoil one’s ability to act effectively.
Sometimes a husband and wife get into a bad emotional habit with one another. According to stereotypes, the husband is suspicious or the wife nags. How can these inclinations be conquered? Not by eliminating suspicion/requests, but by considering more abstractly the criteria under which suspicion/requests may be justified and when it is destructive. We need to become reflective about habit governed behavior until we can understand its structure with the content removed, so that we can later take control of the inclination to accord with chosen structures. The habits that are realized in personal relationships are very difficult to control.
In Ramadan we want to reconfigure our relationship to Allah.
The broad distinction between the instinctive act and the intelligent and free act is that the latter is performed with an awareness of what is being done; when the content of the interest in which one is absorbed is drawn out of its immediate unity with oneself and becomes an independent object of one's thinking, then it is that spirit begins to be free, whereas when thinking is an instinctive activity, spirit is enmeshed in the bonds of its categories and is broken up into an infinitely varied material.*

So, a part of fasting is concerned with repenting and taking control of our intentions. Lady Fatima Zahra (‘a) Says: “Fasting in Ramzan is considered obligatory by God for fixing the genuineness of your intentions.”

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Hegel, Hegel’s Science of Logic, tr. A. V. Miller (Amherst: Humanity Books, 1998), 37: “Das instinktartige Tun unterscheidet sich von dem intelligenten und freien Tun dadurch überhaupt, daß dieses mit Bewußtsein geschieht; indem der Inhalt des Treibenden heraus aus der unmittelbaren Einheit mit dem Subjekte zur Gegenständlichkeit vor dieses gebracht ist, beginnt die Freiheit des Geistes, der in dem instinktweisen Wirken des Denkens, befangen in den Banden seiner Kategorien, in einen unendlich mannigfachen Stoff zersplittert ist.”

2 Ramadan 1431


We ask God to forgive us for what we have made of ourselves, and seek improvement from Him. The program for change follows the series: fear, hope, love. Fear inspires action to escape from what is feared, and this brings with it the hope of success. Hope intensifies as yearning and blossoms as love. There are many examples of this pattern. Example 1. Fear of God is fear of being displeasing to Him. To escape what is feared we try to do what is pleasing to Him. Regardless of our failures, we have hope in His grace. Our hope in His grace intensifies as yearning for His graciousness, and blossoms as love of Him. Example 2. We fear our flaws. This prompts action to overcome them, such as fasting, in hope that by His will we may improve. The intensification of the hope is yearning for improvement. By His grace we then find blossoming in our hearts the love of the virtues.

Fasting is an old method for improvement. Forms of fasting are found in all the major religions. Fasting is often connected with alms giving. Both are ways of giving up the base aspects of one’s nature. One seeks to shift one’s affections from the base to the noble. The shift is one from base powers to noble powers. We find the ability to overcome the hold that hunger, thirst, and lust for sex or money or power have over our hearts. We weaken ourselves by fasting to empower ourselves. So, a kind of lust for power remains, but it is the paradoxical lust for power over our own inclinations, which power is freedom. Freedom is freedom from the abuse of power.

1 Ramadan 1431


Today I am thinking about tawbah, repentance.
The beginning part of the du'a for the onset of Ramadan is full of a lot of self-deprication: Oh God, here I am, a no good, dirty, piece of garbage. I know that You are so kind, You'll even hear me out.
My son said that he didn't like that part of the du'a. It seems to foster a negative self-image, to say the least.
It occurred to me, however, was that this cast a different light on repentance.
We usually think of repenting for specific deeds, our sins. It seems to me, however, there is also a repenting for how we are. I guess there are aspects of everyone that are garbage. We can repent of our vices. We can repent of being inconsiderate, for example, of being insufficiently sensitive to the ways in which we hurt others. We can repent of pride, conceit, selfishness, of having a bad temper, etc.
But in repentance for acts, we need to resolve never to do that again. How can we do that for character traits? You can't just decide not to be insensitive any more. But you can decide to take steps to become more considerate.
Normally, for repentance it is necessary to examine ourselves, and this is usually taken to mean to scan our memory for the sins we have done. However, we can also scan our hearts to inquire what we have become.
As we enter Ramadan, we have an opportunity to start with repentance and to take up the spiritual journey yet again to cleanse ourselves of our vices, bit by bit.